Essence..

Well writing a thankyou letter for you is very difficult.. not because there are too many things but because there are a very less no. of things that I can rule out!!
This girl was unknown to me for 18 years of my life.. till i met her in delhi. I knew her by her face.. and I knew her sister very well and her brother was a bit known to me.
One fine evening discovered a new face in our PG;53-D,Vikaspuri.. as usual, I ,the bigmouth went and started my setof questioners.. she answerd them all with all her patience. I found strange how can somebody stay so quiet and behave so properly??(later I was told, I had made her head ache very badly with my questions..).. she was from my colony..so the brotherhood or rather sisterhood was invisibly strong..

Days passed as our friendship grew.. discovered just within a few days..she wasn’t quiet with her friends.. and by that time I had gained entry in her list of friends.. she was in JR-26 so our class timings didn’t match.. we met in the evenings.. in either of our rooms..

Things started changing from December with the entry of a significant person in our topics.. the ambience changed a lot.. but we didn’t forget our pieces of fun.. my each step by that time was under the scrutiny of my best friend then.. she wasn’t my friend, but my mother.. and thanks she was there I restrained myself from a list of mischeifs.. though she knew each of them..

Perhaps her life changed a lot on 21st feb.. and thankfully I was a part on that.. but she didn’t change a bit..our exams were imminent and the heart beats were soaring with a huge rate of progression.. but we didn’t miss our part of fun.. nights were incomplete without her series of jokes and my bizarre laughter!!!! Followed by the reactions from the neighbours!!

Exams got over..and our happy days start though they were for a while.. the time between the CBSE-PRELIMS and the RESULTS were perhaps the most unforgettable days of our life.. it ranged from movies to mandirs to khana banana(@maggi) and khilana to a hell lot of things..
Yes we fought..two times.. it was cute though!! The reason was something very stupid which I have forgotten . but the “manana” part was same.. Archies and Sorry card!!!!! I really miss this part!!

Days of departing were coming near.. and perhaps the end of a very beautiful tale too!!
And then finally we headed off.. I came back to kolkata and she went back to MP..

Nothing changed till date except the frequencies of our meetings!! She is right now in Pune doing her MBA.. madam is very busy these days but then also managed to write a very beautiful testimonial for me.. even today i know she will come down at any moment i ask her.. she knows about each move of mine and till date i get good doses of scoldings from her.. but i really love those..PRICELESS
Well dear I want to wish you luck in every step u make,in every breath u take..coz, u are one of the most precious treasure of my life which I want to cherish throughout my life..
I got your sms now, and you made me so nostalgic that I sat and wrote this for you..

By the way her name is KHUSBOO she really spreads the sweet smell of happiness whrever she goes..


I call her KHUSH.. because she had always made me that.. love you dear!!!!!

miss. useless.....

i claim to be versatile...o please can you stop it shramana, today ma asked me to simmer the gas-oven... i turned it to the opposite side!!!!! the bhat got burnt.....
my 10 yr old sister also knows how to do it.....
embarassed!!!!!!

steps....

Post G-Talk..

well its too dark outside.. but i am helpless. i am unable to sleep!! thanks to u!!!! u must have slept i know.. i envy my sleep.. hah!! well i want to talk to you.. just want you to arrange some jumbled up sentences.. dont worry ,its easy.. easier than arranging the jumbled events of my life..

well i want to keep on staring at the night sky tonite..

the seven stars are shining a bit more brightly today.. perhaps, they are resting too..

carezz and smiless....

TP

ma says..i am unique.. i know.. not as unique like Auro(of Paa)!! well, if i intend to write down a blog on each of my thoughts that i harbour throughout the day..blogger.com would go crazzzzyyy!! so i am in for a bit of social service[:)]
i really want to meet somebody who complements my energy.. one who can waste as much time as i waste..by either staring on the blue screen of the tv for hours,or looking the sun set throughout the evening!!

its nice actually.... to be a bit different..
smilesssssss.......

placed

well subho got a job!! he called me up at 8.in the morning!! i am happy for him.. we have been good friends for long now!hd been my inevitable  ,100kms away in kolkata, who used to make me live and smile in bankura!! i remember even in my present college..i used to talk to him in between every break..even in the dissection room!!hah!!scary! well,he had promised me to gift me ,that wristlet that i chose in syndicate jwellers!! long way still..but one step ahead.. i wish him good luck for his future..

forwarded yet nice..

i want you frends to read this story..

Ant And Grasshoper

the Ant works hard in the withering heat all summer building its house and laying up supplies for the winter. The Grasshopper thinks the Ant is a fool and laughs & dances & plays the summer away. Come winter, the Ant is warm and well fed. The Grasshopper has no food or shelter so he dies out in the cold. *Indian Version* The Ant works hard in the withering heat all summer building its house and laying up supplies for the winter.The Grasshopper thinks the Ant's a fool and laughs & dances & plays the summer away. Come winter, the shivering Grasshopper calls a press conference and demands to know why the Ant should be allowed to be warm and well fed while others are cold and starving. NDTV, BBC, CNN show up to provide pictures of the shivering Grasshopper next to a video of the Ant in his comfortable home with a table filled with food. The World is stunned by the sharp contrast. How can this be that this poor Grasshopper is allowed to suffer so? Arundhat Roy stages a demonstration in front of the Ant's house.* Medha Patkar goes on a fast along with other Grasshoppers demanding that Grasshoppers be relocated to warmer climates during winter. Mayawati states this as `injustice' done on Minorities. Amnesty International and Koffi Annan criticize the Indian Government for not upholding the fundamental rights of the Grasshopper. The Internet is flooded with online petitions seeking support to the Grasshopper (many promising Heaven and Everlasting Peace for prompt support as against the wrath of God for non-compliance). Opposition MPs stage a walkout. Left parties call for ' Bengal Bandh' in West Bengal and Kerala demandinga Judicial Enquiry. CPM in Kerala immediately passes a law preventing Ants from working hard in the heat so as to bring about equality of poverty among Ants and Grasshoppers. Lalu Prasad allocates one free coach to Grasshoppers on all Indian Railway Trains, aptly named as the 'Grasshopper Rath'. Finally, the Judicial Committee drafts the ' Prevention of Terrorism Against Grasshoppers Act' [POTAGA], with effect from the beginning of the winter. Arjun Singh makes 'Special Reservation ' for Grasshoppers in Educational Institutions & in Government Services. The Ant is fined for failing to comply with POTAGA and having nothing left to pay his retroactive taxes, it's home is confiscated by the Government and handed over to the Grasshopper in a ceremony covered by NDTV. Arundhati Roy calls it ' A Triumph of Justice'. Lalu calls it 'Socialistic Justice '. CPM calls it the ' Revolutionary Resurgence of the Downtrodden ' Koffi Annan invites the Grasshopper to address the UN General Assembly. **Many years later....** The Ant has since migrated to the US and set up a multi-billion dollar company in Silicon Valley , 100s of Grasshoppers still die of starvation despite reservation somewhere in India , AND As a result of loosing lot of hard working Ants and feeding the grasshoppers, India is still a developing country.


PS:-although this shows a poor image of India, but the fact is that it is true. We don't acknowledge hard work of a person, we provide reservation to poor & helpless, this does not make them rich & happy, it rather makes them more lazy & those who are known as hardworking category of people they are denied of many oppourtinities which they deserved. Our politicians try to extract more & more votes by taking sides of poor & lazy. It is not so that reservation is bad but till what extent? 50% in premier academic instutions is that by any way justifiable. pls pass it on if think Indian senario needs to change, hardworking people deserve better than what they are getting now in India

Study-Leave

Well, I am in home.. each morning is very beautiful over here.. it too cold actually..and I am down wd cold.. mamma is taking a good care of mine.. and about studies… well I need to remove the “TV” the “COMP” and the mesmerizing “balcony”.. each activity here jogs my memory of my blog and develops an inimitable want to inscribe down that event appropriately.. Well some expressions are incomprehensible.. like what I felt in the morning when my father said that he wanted to take a month or two’s holiday and come and rest over here in mp.. he seems to hate that place I know..dhanbad..
Know what.. we all are basically homesick kinds..
Its so even though I enjoy my life to the brim, deep down I miss these people very badly.. its been 5years almost I am out my home.. still, ain’t able to adjust amidst the fastidious world..
Latest inborn emotion in me is that I am learning to hold on my intense sentiments against undeserving people.. my mother keeps on taunting me for my interactions with that fool.. anyhows.. I am fine now.. I need to indulge in self confidence course.. I don’t think external sources of your intimate feelings lasts longer.. well I respect friends who think I can do.. I can survive.. I want their support to build myself.. to self-construct my strength..

Well I am once again in love with my bed, my pillow and my teddy bear-printed frilled cozy blanket.. I seem to miss it very badly in the last two winters….and it’s the underlying etiology of my sleeping sickness..
Happy winters friends…..

idea-launched in bengal..

Before starting this post I had a thousand things to pen down.. but when I opened the text I was feeling much bottled up.. I deleted the first sentence five times.. anyways.. I am fine.. as I am predicting myself to be.. well, two days back I went to SCM. My phone’s still not done.. ooopppssss I am missing my cell so badly!!!! I enjoyed a lot that day.. well I am not going into the extensive account.. its just the succinct expression.. I normally hate having ice-creams.. but that day I enjoyed it ..i was surprised myself.. I don’t know it was the ice-cream flavor or the company!!
Well some ideas have inspired me a lot off lately..not with thoughts or advices.. buut with zeal and confidence!! He says its good to be confident.. I don’t know how much of the confidence bug do I hold.. well ya in some things I am confident..like I know I can be agood daughter, I know I can be a good sister.. I know I can be polite with elders.. I know I cant hurt others knowingly..i know I cant fight..but I also KNOW I am WEAK.. I need a support.. and now I want to study coz I want to be confident.. thanks!!yet another in the list you see!!
Lots of pending work ctually.. giving the exams.. going back home.. and reading
2 STATES!! I wont start the book till I give my exams..and I don’t want to fail in promises..

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smiles…. All through the space ..to fill up gaps.. I hope… and just anticipate..

insignificant..

my exams are just a few days away.. and i have again become addicted to orkut!! i want to study but am not able to!! each day my schedule fails.. am tired of staring at the running hands of the wall clock!! i am not well.. lost around 6kgs over the past few months..

smitten by the bad habit of becoming nostalgic.. i dont know why do i waste so much time in thinking about the past..attending phone calls and smsing.. and why dont i forget stupid old things??

i dont know how long i will be able to stay away from orkut but i will try.. i promise to myself..to all of yyou.. more the number of days.. greater the number of chocolates that i will gift myself..

by the way.. abir gifted me a bournville that day.. it was fantastic..thankyou..

anyways..

Adieu..