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The only thing constant about life is “change”.. understandings change each second ..with perhaps every heart beat.. I used to feel a lot different about me,about him,about her.. about a different her..its changing drastically.. I have always trusted people even after a sour ending. even after a fight..even after everything perhaps.. But why don’t they change????? Rather why don’t I change!!!!! Why do I keep on expecting that she’ll change!!
She has again hurted me....she does smile when she comes..but she bitches again at my back!!
He has also changed rather my feelings have grown mature.. I now know what love is all about.. its complex. Its mystified.. Its inexplicable..
I am a bit dynamic now..# called me up that day to say he’ll try to be the AMAN MATHUR of KAL HO NA HO….i blindly trusted.. yet again.. but now I know he cant be..coz he is another soul.. surviving to explore new ventures..
I am back home again.. they said they needed some passport verifications.. regarding my identity..
I went to the court today.. I went to the police station to prove I am SHRAMANA BAGCHI.. I stammered.. They have called me tomorrow, again..
Have I lost myself????