Well, I am in home.. each morning is very beautiful over here.. it too cold actually..and I am down wd cold.. mamma is taking a good care of mine.. and about studies… well I need to remove the “TV” the “COMP” and the mesmerizing “balcony”.. each activity here jogs my memory of my blog and develops an inimitable want to inscribe down that event appropriately.. Well some expressions are incomprehensible.. like what I felt in the morning when my father said that he wanted to take a month or two’s holiday and come and rest over here in mp.. he seems to hate that place I know..dhanbad..
Know what.. we all are basically homesick kinds..
Its so even though I enjoy my life to the brim, deep down I miss these people very badly.. its been 5years almost I am out my home.. still, ain’t able to adjust amidst the fastidious world..
Latest inborn emotion in me is that I am learning to hold on my intense sentiments against undeserving people.. my mother keeps on taunting me for my interactions with that fool.. anyhows.. I am fine now.. I need to indulge in self confidence course.. I don’t think external sources of your intimate feelings lasts longer.. well I respect friends who think I can do.. I can survive.. I want their support to build myself.. to self-construct my strength..
Well I am once again in love with my bed, my pillow and my teddy bear-printed frilled cozy blanket.. I seem to miss it very badly in the last two winters….and it’s the underlying etiology of my sleeping sickness..
Happy winters friends…..
1 comment:
it is heartening to see that you are finally waking up to the harsher realities of life,i.e. we are only as strong as we believe ourselves to be,because the moment you stop believing in yourself is the moment you start on the downward spiral of endless sorrow and suffering.
also,i have this feeling that you would be better off taking a hard decision regarding your interaction with people who have hurt you.i'll share a personal belief of mine with you-basically,people never change.they may put on a different mask but deep down they remain the same.keep that in mind.i have avoided many a pitfall going by this golden adage.hope you find it useful too.
i am not saying that people don't deserve a second chance-everybody deserves a second chance.but when someone you know really well, someone who is close to you hurts you very badly,i think it's time to do a rethink about that person.
you seem to have a loving family where it seems everything is nice and normal.count yourself as extremely lucky..not everyone is blessed with such joy.
you like to look back on your past life.i do the same,although i am not bold enough to put it on a public blog.in that way, you are way braver and definitely more open than me.but then,that is one of the many reasons why i admire you so much.
oh sorry,i almost forgot.about my identity crisis=]
well, i know you have exams around the corner and so i think it would be prudent not to saddle you with the added burden of knowing my true identity,yet.
actually, i have selfish motives of my own for staying anonymous.you see,i have exams too.and commenting on your blog posts and getting replies in turn feels like i am carrying on a two way conversation with you!it feels magical,words fail me..and i am afraid that after coming to know who i am,this spell might be broken once and for all.
however, if you don't break promises(i don't),then there's every chance we shall meet in january..just thinking about coming face to face with you makes me insanely happy!
and please,whatever happens in life,do try to stay happy and keep smiling......
p.s.1-about your never judging a book by its cover,i agree with you 100 percent.after being kicked in the face(backstabbing is passe=])more often than i can remember,i now judge others as guilty/bad first,and do my corrections afterwards!even if i am wrong,it won't hurt as badly if i went the other way around!
p.s.2-reading your post made me very very homesick too!
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